And Katie Makes Seven

So now my eldest has been home over a week with us she has her moments but you know what she is behaving way better than she did before we left England and deffantly better than she did at her dad and step mom's house! Thank God! She is enrolled in school and is trying to figure out how to graduate early! She is trying to apply herself and do all the work she needs to do for school! Granted it has everything to do with wanting to go back to England when she is 18 to be with her boyfriend but we shall see what becomes of that! Just thought I'd share a brief update time to get cracking on breakfast before my people revolt!

It Is Done..

Congratulations it's a 16 year old tempermental mouthy teenager! Well she did it, she gave her father the letter and the shit hit the fan at his house. Wow glad I handled it better than he did when she wanted to leave my home to go live with her father. I was hurt, I cried I didn't tell her she was acting like a bitch I didn't yell and etc. It got so bad her step cow had to call my folks to come get my daughter. So this weekend I shall make the journy to collect my child and bring her home. She is so fed up with her father she told me on the phone that her step dad was more of a father than her daddy and that she wanted him to sign over his rights and for her step dad to adopt her. She explained to her daddy that she wanted to come home to us because we understand her better and well we do I told him that I mean come on I have raised her for 16 years I think I do have a better grip on who she is and what kind of care she requires. I'm nervous cause she put us through so much back in England and I can't go through that again. I am hoping maybe though she'll come back with a better attitude and greater appreciation for her family lord help us all! Pray for my family that we can manage to pull together and come through the funk England put us in and find a happier place in our lives together. Well it's time to load up my van and take my kiddos to school! Deal with my ex and his emotions today he really is bugging the crap out of me! I finally snapped at him last night cause I had, had enough of him! Lord grant me patients cause I'm gonna need them!

Will She or Wont She?

Been talking to my eldest a lot lately in hopes that maybe I can get through to planet I don't wanna listen to your mouth mommy! She has confided in me today that she wants to rejoin our family here in South Carolina, while my heart wants to rejoyice cause my child, my first born wants to come home...another part of me thinks hmm I dunno if she wants to cause she misses us or is it cause of her dad randomly shutting down her internet. She made up with her boyfriend in England and well if he shuts down the internet then she can't talk to him. I wish I had some magic crystal ball or hell a magic 8 ball would do to question the intent of my child! She hasn't broken it to her father just yet what she wants but however I don't know that she will either she said she had wrote him a letter. I don't know if she will give it to him or talk to him about it or if she really is going to move back home she has gone back and forth before my wayward teen! I miss her, I love her however I wonder cause she does have some hard headedness going on if it's really for the best for us to all come back together! I guess maybe she has learned to appreciate her family more I hope so! Time will maybe with some prayers and patients we'll all work this out in the end! And just as I get ready to end this blog I get a phone call from her and she wants me to tell her father for her...I can't do that, it is something that she has to and needs to do herself! *sigh* Oh where shall this take us now!

All Stressed Out And No One To Choke...

I have done my best to raise my children right and it is so hard to sit and watch my oldest do a lot of the things she has done and is currently doing! I just want to scream! She keeps me worried, stressed out and I just don't know what to do anymore! She decided upon our return home from living overseas she would move in with her daddy and step mom. She said she didn't want to start over at a new high school where she didn't know anyone so I was hurt but I understood! Now lets however rewind time over the last year she has gotten way way way out of control and I can't quite figure it out. I taught her right from wrong and I have done any and everything I can think to steer her in the right direction so that she can make good choices and have a good life! However my teenager is lazy, sarcastic, foul mouth, selfish and I could go on and on! She was cussing at her step dad and I and her siblings before we left to come back to the USA! She never picked up after herself and acted if we owed her the world! She got worse when she hung out with certain children from school she got busted for shoplifting before we left. And oh yeah having sex great! Sneaking out of our home and what not lovely! She had stolen cigarettes from me, snuck alcohol she has done more than I ever hoped or thought to do when I was her age! Well now she is with her daddy and things haven't changed that much lets see physical fight with her step mom they both were smacking each other and pulled each other's hair out lovely! Sneaking out of her dad's house to meet up with a group of boys and so she could have sex with a 20 year old, smoking with her step mom, cussing her dad and step mom, skipping out on drivers ed to hang with a new boy! I swear at this rate I will be a grandmother long before I am ready to be one! I love my child yes I do but I don't know what to do anymore with her! I wish I could afford a boot camp or some kind of thing for out of control teens she needs to get her life in order! She has stated she wants to have a baby but heck look at how she is acting she isn't mature enough to make good choices for herself let alone another individual. She has admitted to her dad that the one time she got caught shoplifting wasn't the first time nice great! She lies to me more than she tells the truth! I want to trust my child, I want her to have a good life I just don't know what to do with her anymore! Her dad is about to pull his hair out! She isn't even living with me and she has me stressed out! Last weekend was her first visit with us since we moved back a month ago and she didn't want to come then cause she wanted to hang out with the newest boy but her daddy told her either go to your mama's or stay home so rather than being stuck in the house she came to stay with me boy I feel the love! And I don't' get it I am the one constant that has always been there for her done everything for her and she treats me like that! Her father has grounded her due to lying so she can't go to the dance she can't see her new boyfriend so she hits me up to come get her this weekend which I'm not doing cause of gas money and I have plans with friends and we live in different states now and she is going to just get over it cause I know the reason she wants to come so bad it isn't because she misses me or even wants to be around us it is simple she thinks she can have Internet over here and use my phone to text her boyfriend. It's sad really it's sad it would be different if I knew she just wanted to be here with me! I miss my little girl where has she gone and who is this stranger who has taken her place! My heart breaks almost on a daily basis! She swore she'd never be like this she use to watch those episodes of Maury with the out of control teens and she swore she would never be like them and well here we are at age 16 and is going the wrong way on a one way road! Lord help us all!